I'm a bi guy, but I've been in long term relationships with women since my early 20s. I've missed doing stuff with guys for a long time, and as I'm recently single I decided to fulfill a long term fantasy.

This week I'm staying in a hotel in a different city to the one I live in, and I discovered that there's a gay sauna here. There are plenty in Manchester where I live but I've never been to one because I'm not fully out and I always worried about running in to someone I know, but a new city calls for new experiences.

Yesterday afternoon I got over my nerves and went to the sauna. Initially it felt really weird to be walking around naked in front of all these other men, and I didn't really know what to do with myself. I went upstairs to the cinema room where I sat and watched some porn and slowly got myself hard and relaxed. A couple of guys stood and watched me lazily play with myself without approaching me and it really turned me on.

Then I went and found the gloryholes, which was the real reason I was there. I went in and locked the door behind me and it wasn't long at all before the first cock came through the hole.

I forgot how much fun sucking cock is. He was bigger than me, and uncut, and feeling him getting harder in my hand and my mouth and hearing him moan through the wall turned me on like nothing else. Once I'd had that first taste all my nerves disappeared and I spent the next hour or two alternating between sucking and being sucked, then going to sit in the steam room for a few minutes to chill out before going back again. The place slowly filled up with guys while I was there and as they all got more into it the sounds of anonymous people fucking and being fucked started to fill the play areas and it was super hot.

One guy - and I have no idea who - gave me the best blowjob I've ever had, my legs were shaking with the effort of staying standing during it, though he stopped before I came.

Eventually I started to get a headache from the heat and the music so I left without finishing, went back to my hotel, and wanked myself silly. Today I've been randomly getting hard throughout the day as I get flashbacks to yesterday, not knowing how many cocks I sucked or how many guys played with me and not knowing who they were or what they looked like.

This has been on my list of fantasies for years and it was everything I wanted it to be. It's very difficult not to just forget about the reason I'm actually staying here this week and to spend all my time at the sauna instead!