Want to cheat with boyfriend’s friend.

40F I’ve never cheated before. Boyfriend ran into an old highschool friend and his girlfriend. We’ve been hanging out with them. They are swingers, one night we ended up naked together but boyfriend wouldn’t participate so nothing happened. I was really disappointed. He later gave me permission to have sex with the friend but only when we’re together. I asked my boyfriend to watch us but he didn’t want to. The friend and I started messaging and it slowly escalated to sexting, pictures and videos. And me begging him to f@ck me. We’ve been talking everyday and figuring out when we can hook up. I love my boyfriend but I’m bored and he’s being vanilla. I have a bucket list.