Ill lead with the understanding that I wasn't on any form of BC, i dont believe in abortion and would've had his baby. I did not end up getting pregnant. I started BC very quickly after the experience.

It was earlier in the affair, maybe a few months into it. We were a little more than comfortable and knew what each other liked. I wouldn't say it was romantic in the least bit. Got to the cheap hotel, bums sleeping outside the door. I wouldnt go to the door with out him. Went in together and munched on some Jack in the box we just got. I had skipped dinner to get ready for the night. My husband was home with the kids. I remember him asking me not to go out that night that he wasn't feeling well, but I needed a break. Told him Id be home earlier.

Before I could finish eating he was behing me helping me take my jacket off. Kissing and biting my neck. Telling me he was in a good mood and was ready to show me how a real man fucks. Pulled my shirt off and had me stand up. He sat on the edge of the bed and told me to get to work. I knelt infront of him and undid his belt and pants. Tried to pull him out but needed to pull his pants down more. He seemed to be in a hurry and grabbed the back of my head leading me to his penis. I was not a pro by any means and tried to handle his size. I ended up using my hands more than my mouth. He must have taken a viagra because he was very hard, very fast. Which wasnt normal for him.

Had me lay on the bed, Pulled my pants and panties off together. Crawled between my legs and licked my pussy. I wasnt accustomed to getting oral. I rarely allowed my husband despite him begging. I wasn't about to tell Nelson no. He fingered me with 2 fingers while licking my pussy. From what i know now he wasn't very good at it, but it felt good.

Had me scoot back on the bed and he crawled up, kissed me and looked down to guide himself into me. He tried to push into me but I wasnt wet enough. He crawled forward and tried to hump my head into the bed. I couldnt take it, he told.me to suck him and slobber on it.

Crawled back and started to force himself into me. He was so big. Sex with him hurt 90% of the time. We had sex missionary for a bit and he said he was gonna cum asked if he could skip the condom. I agreed if he pulled out. We switched to me riding him. Took me a bit to take him all the way in but I was grinding on him. He would thrust with me making me gasp and moan as I rode him. I reminded him he said he would pull out. I had already came a couple times by this point. I grinded on him and started building an intense orgasm. I told him i was gonna cum. He continued to try to help me. He reached down and played with my clit while I grinded him. I started to cum. I remember moaning loudly. I felt him tense up while I was cumming and then felt his hot cum meet my cervix wall. He came so much inside me it came gushing out. He said he didnt want to interupt my orgasm and he could do what ever he wanted.

He got dressed quickly and left. I showered in the hotel room now by myself, crying scared of what was to come. Was I going to be pregnant, would I be a single mother, what would i do? Crying about what I've become. Dreading going home to my husband feeling like I betrayed him. After the shower, i got home over an hour earlier than i had told him id be. I felt so ashamed i couldnt look at him. I said I got sick in the bathroom at the bar. He stayed up with the kids while I went to bed.

It wasnt the last time someone else came in me but it was the biggest scare. It was still coming out the next morning. My husband tried to massage my pussy in the morning and thought i was just wet. I felt more ashamed and said i didnt feel good. He didnt push.