I just can't stay away, not even so much for the sexual stuff but because I need that closeness. All the girls are so sweet and kind. They make you feel loved and wanted. And I did well until about the beginning of this month and then I just started to slip up more and more and to care less and less about being clean. Now here I am trying to find a girl to talk to because I'm so lonely and can't find one. I love being dirty I love boobs I love seeing girls.

The reason I got clean is because I was into some really dark stuff and I was loving it and I didn't like that I was loving it so I got clean and now that stuff is out of my system and I'm afraid that I'll get back into that stuff but I'm just so lonely

Like I would spend 12 to 16 hours a day jerking off, my whole life really involved around my phone and sexting. I miss having people to talk to you about that but since I got clean and deleted all my old accounts I don't have anybody to talk to anymore. I just feel so lonesome