I have this new love interest and as we flirt and I wonder about her I start to fantasize, imagining all the delicious ways we could enjoy each other. This morning I woke from dreams about her. I am delightedly high on lust. I’m just going to embrace it, the pure simplicity of wanting and expectation. It keeps taking me way to long to respond to messages this morning because I want to sexualize everything. I don’t want to work at all, just look at porn and plan all the adventures that I want to share with her. I want to have my head clear from daydreaming and be present and connected to to her when we talk. I want to be focused at work… I want to bring her on a leash to a kink party and offer her around as a free use toy. Have her obediently naked and bent over a couch at a party and finger her and slap her ass as I talk with friends ignoring her and casually sharing her. Asking friends to play in her holes or keep fucking her while I get drinks. Have her lay back and hold her ankles while I tease at her pussy with a riding crop and talking to my friends about what a slut she is and how eager to please she is as I slowly slowly ramp up the swats to her lips and clit and thighs. I want her so badly to be my plaything. My mind keeps looping back to a new fantasy every few minutes. I’ll leaking into my underwear from all the getting hard over and over again. Just wanting. Just desire, endless maddening desire spinning further out into kinky strangeness.