(24f)

so, i've been with my bf for almost a year and a half now. we are exclusive because he's always been monogamic; he had many relationships while i had none and for some years I've been really open about my sexuality and of course i love fucking. also it was always "easy" because im hot and flirty af and i honestly love to see how guys react. i feel guilty sometimes but guys it's honestly SO easy. so i love to play a lot which of course, i do with my partners too.

so... since i started my relationship, though we did talk about it several times, we never actually opened our relationship. won't get into that cause i LOVE my boyfriend, he's the best and ultimate best and i always find myself thinking that he's always better. he's always or more handsome or better at fucking. nevertheless, i just love having sex and having many occasional partners. i honestly think I'm very lucky, even though I'm not the prettiest (but shit I've been told i am many many times) and therefore i love hooking up with hot and funny guys.

tonight i finally did it. but don't get ahead of it, we didn't fuck - we just smoked weed, drink beer, and then lay in bed and do some stuff. i was decided about not having sex. I don't know, i just feel like I can't. however he did suck my tits and touch my pussy, with two or three fingers inside every time. it was AWESOME. he was so fucking horny about the fact that he couldn't fuck me, so he did everything i let him do. I didn't touch his dick, he didn't eat my pussy because I wouldn't let him. he was literally BEGGING. but when he put his hand beneath my pants i lost it. i had to let him do it because it felt SO good and maybe not that wrong. i was busy having a fun time. he was so hot too, we've been wanting each other for years. ugh he was SO hard and i was so wet.

by the way: we have known eachother for ten years. we used to date when we were young and it didn't last long, but it WAS fun. we didn't go that far either, so not fucking is honestly an amazingly hot game for us. or for me at least. i do feel a bit bad about it but he told me he's fine with it. so... i guess it's okay

hope you have a great night. i will be touching myself until i fall asleep 🚬