Ok, so this is sort of tame compared to most of the wild things I've read on here, but it's also kind of fucked up and definitely fits under the heading of a "confession" as in it's the sort of thing you can only tell a priest, or a bunch of strangers online in a semi anonymous fashion😅

So I have a few siblings, one of my brothers is just over a year younger than I am, so growing up we were actually quite close socially, and had a lot of the same friend circles until we went to high school. I began hanging around with a "cooler" crowd or at least we liked to think we were cool, and while I still enjoyed playing xbox with my brother and his friends, we gradually sort of drifted into different groups.

It was around then that I noticed his treatment of me change. I used to catch him staring sometimes and it took a while for me to realise that he was "checking me out" my initial reaction was to be grossed out, and I genuinely was, infact now looking back I am still. But it also began to make me feel sexy, I had other sisters, and maybe he did, and I just didn't notice, but he never seemed to check them out.

Let me state now, I have no, nor have I ever, had any sexual attraction to my brother the idea of actually doing anything with him grosses me out. But I began to enjoy the attention, and so I would play up to it some times.. if I caught him looking I would make it easier for him to see for example... and I began hang out a lot more in my underwear around the house simply to feel his eyes on me as an ego boost.

Looking back I wish thats were I had drawn the line, but I was a thrill seeker and naievely reveled in this new found attention, I started to teasingly call him out for looking, which at first seemed to genuinely embarass him, but when he realised I wasn't mad it sort of spurred him on, he would say he couldn't help it that I was too hot, which I totally lapped up.

He would complimemt my body, and I loved the validation it gave me. This was my only source of this as I wasn't showing my body to anyone else at this age. And even if boys in school did give me compliments it always seemed less genuine as I assumed they had an "agenda" I began to seek out these compliments from him more and more, and it took a creepier turn when I started to try on outfits for his opinion just to get the thrill of feeling desired and hearing good things about how I looked.

The first few outfits I went to my room and changed then came back to his room for his opinion but all the positive feedback sort of went to my head a little and I started just changing infront of him.. as he watched me changing, he slipped his hand into his pants. I joking said "are you jerking off you big creep?" And he quickly pulled his hand out and looked embarassed. I got a head rush, and my ego added "you can if you want." So he did.

He didn't pull out his dick or anything, just jerked away hand in his pants as he watched me changing.. this then became a thing, when ever I was changing or showering he would ask if he could watch. And I rarely said no. And each time he would jerk himself off. I would get an incredibly exciting thrill as he did, there was an anticipation and a build up as I could see him "getting there" and I got both a gross and yet exciting buzz when he would eventually cum, as on one hand it was a case of; "Oh, gross my brother just came all over the barhroom floor" while on the other it was like the ultimate compliment to an insecure teenager that I was able to bring a guy to climax just by standing there (this was before I realised how easy guys could "get there"🙄)

This went on for quite a while, and eventually just came to an end on its own, I think around the time he started dating... Looking back on it is majorly cringy for me and it does gross me out, but I also owe a lot of my body confidence to that part of my life so there is a little silver lining😅