My fiancé (25M) and I (21f) have been dating for almost 4 years (I was 18, and he was 21 when we started dating). We started having sex a month and a half in, and 5 months in, I started birth control, so he started spending his load inside me.

For 3 years, he has spent every single load hilt deep inside my pussy (unless I was giving him head). In February, we decided he wouldn't cum inside me until our wedding in October. We also agreed to no kinky sex until after our wedding as well.

It's so fucking hard though! I miss feeling the specific way his hips move, his cock starts to pulsate, and his thrusts feel during the moments leading up to him spending. I miss feeling his cock throb as he thrusts his hips deeper into me while he's spending his load. I miss the way his arms would wrap around me and pull me closer while he cums. I miss hearing his moans directly in my ear.

I miss the way he collapses onto me after he spends his load and cuddling with him for a couple of minutes. I miss squeezing his cock with my pussy after he cums and us laughing together because he hates the feeling. I miss him cringing at it and saying it's time to clean up.

I love this man (and his fat cock), and I know the satisfaction of having him spend a fat load inside me on our wedding night is going to SOOOO worth it. But I really fucking miss it. Sex is NO wear NEAR as satisfying without having him cum inside me.