We've been messaging back and forth and he's been holding his cum for me. Edging for days. Dripping precum. Soaking shorts. It's never turned me on before but for some reason now it does. Watching him stroke it outside on the balcony. To ME. Balls full of cum, ready to burst. He said if I make him wait long enough he'd probably nut as soon as he slid inside me. That sounded so fucking amazing. Use that cum as lube for the next round. He lives less than 30 minutes away, but I'm nervous to meet a stranger. Decent looking and average cock. (He shaved when I asked him not to, that made me annoyed. I like it trimmed and hairy) Plus I love controlling his cock from a distance. Now that I'm writing this, I control a lot of cocks from a distance...🥵 Make them nut for me knowing they can't physically have what very few have. Sending them pictures to get them over the edge. Making them think it's for them but really it's for me..

What do I do?