This confessional might be kinda bland since I'm a virgin but fuck it right?

I have a lot on my mind so this is just sort of a me just airing my mind out for my future self and anyone who's interested.

So to start off, I obviously primarily use reddit for porn ngl( probs very obvious lol). I've probably jacked it to to nearly every nsfw subreddit in existence. This reddit is usually been my gateway to find most of those other nsfw reddits and people I follow by snooping through r/sluttyconfession people's histories from the stories I like.

I've easily in the past 10 years have cum roughly at least once or twice per day of those years with some occasional week-month breaks in-between beating my meat like it owns me money just to see if I can stop when I wanted to. Recently, I've tried doing another break but since I've started college in person again. It's been soooo hard to stop again😅 since there are always extremely attractive college women around me. WOMEN ARE TOO ATTRACTIVE MY GOD. Every time I stop feeding into the pleasure snake, I feel like I'ma go feral or something after just walking through campus or sitting near even mid attractive women. It doesn't help at all that even my roommates, who are also long term friends, are all women as well, like 100/10 attractive, and I've heard some of them... have sex...multiple times through my walls. Pretty sure they know how loud they are and it's been established between us that fucking around in the house is fine as long as the sexing doesn't echo through the entire house and is respectful to other people. BUT FUCK MAN !! hearing them have sex sometimes is really making me question how slutty I am or want to be.

I've always been the been the "I'm not gonna take nudes, it's too risky kinda guy." or "I'm not gonna chat up another horny person on reddit/porn boards" as I am somewhat reserved/shy sexually hence why I get no bitches😥 and that I'm mega terrified of speed running ruining my life with a unexpected pregnancy. But those stances of mine are definitely starting to wane in the wake of my unhinged horny brain influencing me.

There's a lot opportunity on reddit, especially since I live near L.A, to fulfill my sexual desires/fantasies but I'm so nervous to do so lolol as I'm still in-between wanting to lose my virginity in a relationship or start being a giga slut.