Hello.

If you don't care to read my whole story and reasons then the bottom line is I need help trying to decide if I should maybe try hooking up with someone or rather wait till I live alone and can see whoever whenever and not have to worry about anything going wrong.

Im Jamie. I'm 20 and from south Africa still living with my parents and I am a bit religious. I consider myself bicurious as I've never been with anyone. I'm slightly attracted to guys but only a certain type (the more feminine kind). I'm also currently studying

Ive recently been having thoughts about trying to find someone to hook up with to see if I actually like being with the same gender or if I want to try explore being a sissy/femboy more.

I haven't been able to do many sissy things sadly such as shave my legs or arms while living with my parents not am I able to buy any clothes or toys(luckily I have a plug). However I have done other stuff like anal or cum eating and dressing up.

My parents have decided to go away in about 2 months time for a while and I've been thinking if I should maybe take that opportunity to try hook up with someone. I'm at a cross roads about this though.

Sex has always kind of been like a special idea to me that it should be done with the right person. However the slut inside me is kinda trying to tell me different and says just try finding someone even if they may not be the one. I'm also worried just about small stuff like getting an std or maybe getting kidnapped in some way (I know its stupid but south africa isn't exactly the safest place to meet people from online).

So I'm now wondering should I really try finding someone on like grinder or something to hook up with for a day or should I rather wait for 3 Years until I'm finished studying and hopefully moved out?

I'm sorry for the long speech and would love to know what your experiences was like and if any of regreted it or would do differently?