I feel like I keep getting deeper and deeper into the rabbit hole!!!

Obviously I started this journey with porn I masterbate to getting more and more nasty.. then trans porn with trans girl being ultra feminine and curvy… then more and more going towards traps then sissies then cross dressers so on and so on. Anyway…. I used to be turned on by the thought of being dressed up and fuckeddddddd but now I’m starting to fantasize about men who actually treat me like a woman. Like actually being sweet and flirty and it’s almost like that is worse!

Sometimes I’ll just see a hot guy… esp a hot black guy and just wonder what it would be like to be on my hands and Kees in a gstring and fishnets sucking his cock…

Are there any sissies here who have had an experience in real life with a man who didn’t just fuck you like a whore but actually fucked you like a girl?!!! My goodness just writing this is getting me hot. I’ve been on this sissy journey for a long time but I just feel like this evolution is different… I don’t even wear a chastity anymore because I almost never get hard that is how far I am. This next step I feel like is different…