Until now I didn't really accepted being a sissy. I am locked for nearly a week now and didn't even took it off for cleaning (until now I have no problem and it is a open cage). The result is that I went into a sex Shop, bought bigger dildos and a plug with Vibration, tried my own pee and went crazy for sissy. I need to think all the time about being a sissy, my desires/fantasy got more extrem and I wished to be just a mindless fucktoy. I played with the new dildos which was my best experiance for now, precum came and I felt like I was near of cuming from anal. My desires grew to become a sissy and my plan was to loose further weight, because I am chubby, so I could buy a Outfit next year. I felt like I was on a good way to accept being a sissy and become one but now I am unsure. My desires got out of hand and my other Hobbys and other interests became less importent. I fear that sissy would replace parts of me and has to much influences on other part of my everyday life. Now I think I should stop it before I get to deep.