So this may be long but i feel like i needed to write it and put it in the world haha! So here we go!

When i was much younger and first found porn and started masturbating it was like drugs lol. I could go 5 or 6 times a night masturbating with nothing even coming out. It just felt good and i knew i wanted more of it. Once i was able to watch porn more i would do the same but i had stuff i was watching. I noticed that in a lot of porn i watched the mens penis was always way bigger than mine, being on the smaller side 1.5 soft 4.5 hard,that was no surpise. But i started wondering if there was so.wthing wrong with me that me penis wasnt getting bigger. Well to avoid the envy of penises in porn i began to watch solo female porn it was soo hot but it raised a lot of questions. What does sex feel like? How does it feel for women? When theu orgasm what does that feel like. So i researcehd how women felt when reaching orgamd and thouvht it sounded amazing! Way better than shooting my small load for 10 secs of pleasure. And i think thats when it started. I would begin going to places like omegel amd pretending to be a girl and role play with strangers online. I thoight it was funny at first wjen theyd call me humiliating names and ask me to do things for them. Caus elike what a weirdo he doesnt even know hes talking to guy. But then i started liking rping as a girl. Iblike when they told me to do stuff and humiliated me. But i went back to regular porn. And i staryed focusing on the penises more and more over time. I got panties in my laundry one day, mixed in from my sister or step moms laundry. I kept them and didnt know what to do at first so they sat there. I tried them on one night and it waslife changing! I thought that no wonder women wear these, theyre so comfortable amd soft and made me feel sexy! Thay sent me on another chase, to find out how sex felt fpr women. I started pretemdong to be a girl and id rub my limp penis like a clit trying to copy how women would rub their clit. I would livhtly play woth my hole and begon to experiment with markers. I wanted to know what it felt like to be filled with cum from a man so i gpt a small syringe and would fill it with water, and unintentionally giving myself an enema. I loved the feeling! I started sizing up until one day i found some toys in my moms drawer. Right there under the panties i was about to steal. I grabed them and ran to the bathroom. I didnt know what to do so i washed them and began to such the smallest one. It ended with my beginkng my path to sissy hood. It slid in and just felt right, so right that i came immediately after putting it in. I practoced as much as i could from then on. Still set in my goal to feel more like a girl cumming and being filled with cock and cum. I chased that high of cumming from just anal stimulation for a few years and then went to college. Once there i stopped messing with sissy stuff cause i had a roomate and wouldnt be able to hide it well. During the summers tho id go home and by now had a colle tion of my own toys and would dress up and use those. Once i got a girlfriend tho we had sex like crazy. I forgot all my sissy stuff. But after the first few months, sex was just kinda meh. I wanted more. I was into chastity by this time too and wanted my gf to be too vut she just wasnt into it. And she still doesnt know im a sissy when shes gone. But i realized that i still want to feel like a girl all the porn i watched i could only focus on the cock going in and out and wonder what it really felt like. And so ive just been falling down thw hole ever since.

Theres more to my tale but this is all i ha e to write at the moment. I hope yoi enjoyed my little story!🩷🩷🩷