Its been a looooong time since the first time I discovered this sissy part of myself. Ive been crossdressing and experimenting with this part of me for years at this point. In the past, Ive taken a lot of naughty pics, sexted a LOT of men, and have had a few sexual encounters too. I used to really enjoy myself when I first started. Id get turned on by how fat and sexy my ass looked in the pics b/c it looked just like a girls. It made me feel so sexy. So I started dressing up.

I would have a lil routine where I'd get dressed, spend some time taking a bunch of pics, and then chat with randoms alll night long. It used to be so exciting, their attention and lust woke something deep inside me that wanted to be submissive. And it would so fun giving into that feeling and behaving submissive. It would get to the point where Id feel absolutely feral, like an animal in heat, desperately needing to be breed and used, It would be all I could think about sometimes.

I would try to plan HU but they rarely worked out for a variety of reasons. The few that I had , weren't the mind shattering experience I was expecting ( Altho kinda my fault for rushing into it). Sexting started to get boring, horny guys can be such dry texters, and were terribly lazy sexters. Id spend HOURS dressing and taking pics, and chatting, only to end up unsatisfied. The men didnt really turn me on, the ones who swore we would link end up ghosting after jacking off. In the end it all sort of felt like a waste of time.

Nowadays, I still occasionally get the urge to dress up and take pics, but even that doesn't turn me on like it used to. I dont even have someone to send them to, and finding someone worth it is almost impossible. I still get horny for dick sometimes but I just JO and call it a day. I just miss how much fun I used to have with all this stuff, how excited I would be to get home after a long day knowing how drunk and slutty I was about to get that night. I miss how looking at my pics used to turn me on, I miss how easily men could make me feel submissive just by complimenting my pics. This whole sissy thing just doesn't evoke the feelings that it used to when I was still new to this, and I kinda miss that.

If you made it all the way to the end, I appreciate you listening to my rant, I just needed a place to vent my feelings. idk if any of yall can relate to this or if its only something that I went thru. Either way, thanks again, maybe I'll see you around. 👋🏾