Hey guys so basically I just turned 18 but I have fantasies about being sissy since 16 and now I really want to but the point is my main thing I want to play with my ass and stuff and gape it please my parents are brown I’m Bengali and I can’t do anything for the love of god k can’t even go out with my friends so there is no way in hell I’m getting toys I can’t even hide it there very strict I was wondering what can I play with what can I do to my self I want to have fun with my body and feel things idk cum like right now im bouta die I love cocks I just want a cock in my throat and I want cum all over so please help me idk what to do what should I do at home I can also no chance of sneaking out so ya please give suggestions and stuff to have fun with my body and ass and stuff ok ya that’s it please help me guys