If you follow me or read my last post you'll know that recently I finally took the leap and got fucked like a girl. I enjoyed it. I liked being seen as a girl. I liked getting pretty and soft. I liked being in that role. It felt comfortable and I want to feel that more.

The sex...opened my eyes. Am I gay? Bisexual? Trans? Genderfluid? Labels aren't that big of a deal but I know I'm not straight or completely cis. I guess at the point I'm at now, I'm ready for whatever the next step is.

I've been with women before, and enjoyed it, but part of me wants to feel like I only have a future with men. I wish I could say "I will only be fucked by men from now on" and really believe it.

I'm beyond feeling shame. I don't get PNC anymore. I'm not worthless because I'm a sissy. I can be feminine and submissive and still have value like everyone else.

I guess my issue is I want a man that wants me to be feminine, but will accept me now while I'm not 100% fem and don't present fem in public. I'd love a man that would help discipline me and keep me motivated to keep becoming more fem, but its hard to find men attracted to femininity that don't care if im not "passing".

Becoming fem is difficult, it takes time and money. I just wish people appreciated and understood that.

That's just some ramblings of mine. Thank you to everyone for keeping this subreddit one of the best! <3