prepare for a huge vent*

I can’t do this anymore . I am breaking down . I am so tired of everyday freaking crying & feeling tired & feeling like I dnt wanna be here nomore . It’s like as soon as life gives me a glimmer of hope SOMETHING HAPPENS . I just wanna shove my head in my pillow & not come up . My body is exhausted , my mind is exhausted & I feel like I’m losing it smh . It’s like everyone else’s life is going & mines is stopping . SMH . Today my son decided it would be cool to freaking pour all my laundry detergent down the drain . MIND you . Right now we live in INCOME based housing, I don’t have a car, TRYING TO SAVE EVERY DOLLAR I FREAKING HAVE . We dnt get food stamps . NOTHING . I have no family I can depend on . NO friends who give a shit about me cause they’re all living either good lives w/ their significant other or they are just tired of hearing how depressed and stressed I am . DUDE WTF ! I’m tired of God putting me thru challenges that I’m failing at dude . Like I can’t breathe BRO PLEASE ! I am literally on my last leg bro LITERALLY . I wish I could just get away from everyone . Like give sumone else this stupid shitty fcking life & start over . I DONT WANT THIS ONE ! IM FCKING TIRED OF DOING ALL THIS SHIT ALONE !