i saw a tiktok of these two moms who are platonic soulmates living & raising their babies together, i thought it was the most beautiful thing. i so wish i had something like that. i still live with my bd who i broke up with over a year & a half ago for cheating on me during my pregnancy. i love my son so much but i do regret everything with his father. he puts on this facade of being this shy, quiet, kind hearted guy but really is a manipulative man child who desperately needs therapy for his sexual issues. i wish i could live on my own with my baby but i can’t afford it. i live in a major city so you can hardly find a studio for less than $1k that requires you to make 3x rent & have a high credit score & all this other bullshit. i’m just so torn. i’m hoping i can find my own mama soulmate, i really can’t do this anymore.