TW: mention of weapon violence

Last night I was at a crappy hotel because it fit in my budget. I was there alone, kids were with dad. I was jolted out of bed at 1am by someone banging on a nearby door, yelling aggressively. From my perspective, it was turning violent quickly. I was so scared I rolled off the bed onto the floor in anticipation of gun shots. Eventually police were called and the incident ended, seemingly OK.

What came up for me is the fear of what I would have done if my kids were with me and I was their only source of protection. What could I have done? Is the solution in prevention, specifically, being over vigilant in picking a hotel next time should the kids be with me? I’m very early in the separation phase and it makes me question if being on my own/going through with the separation is worth having more safety risks like this. I feel like if I had a partner I would have been safer. But maybe that is a fallacy?

Thanks for any perspective or advice from your single parenting perspective.