I’m a single father of a daughter, I been broken up with not being with her mother since 2021. A lot happened between us in which I made horrible choices. We went to couple counseling, but she decided she didn’t want to try anymore and it was nothing I can do to fixed it. She said my choices was part of it but she said we two different people and that she want someone she have things in common.We been living separately for a year now and I’m still heartbroken. It’s like I’m reliving my childhood over again. I’m so broken that I have lost myself. We coparent and I do whatever she need me to do for our daughter. My daughter is happy but I’m not. I don’t even feel like a family, I been trying to move on and just do the best I can but nothing is working anymore. I feel like I failed in life. I don’t want another kid with a different person for various reasons. But the main reason is I don’t want it to fail again and I have two kids by two different women. It has broken because I sacrificed a lot by moving away from a big city and I’m here solo with no one expect my daughter. I don’t want to have another kid by another women because I want my kids to have the same mother and the major reason is I don’t know if I can go through this again. It don’t matter how much money you have, how many kids you have with them etc, they can decide to leave and that what bothers me the most. Me and my daughters mother are different but that’s what I liked, living with her since she been pregnant and being with her since our daughter was born in 2020 i grew attached to her. I’m so hurt and depressed I blame myself I failed as a man and a father. The advice people gave me is that it will heal over time but I honestly think this will haunt me for the rest of my life. I just needed to vent and get this off my chest because I been holding for a while. I been to therapy, try doing things for myself but I just want my family back how it was. I’m not looking for any advice or anything. If you do give it I appreciate it, I just broken I’m just tired I’m just a lost soul at this point