At 40, I've been single most of my adult life. I have tried to do my best being happy while single, even browsing this sub off and on.

For the longest time I thought I would finally find the one, my true love, life and travel partner. And that we would get married someday. Well after getting rejected for the 500th (or whatever) time, by yet another woman who let an abusive asshole stay with her for months on end, yet me, a guy who is not abusive wasn't good enough to get more than one date, I am DONE. My hope in ever finding a partner and fulfilling relationship is pretty much destroyed.

So now I attempt to re-write my endgame. I know I want to continue traveling. I have done solo traveling and solo cruises and enjoyed myself. Recently did the wrong cruise for solo, although I still had good time with some sad moments as well. Got a cruise booked that I've done before and had a blast solo, much better fit. Will I travel to england? Australia? Will I move to a new location because I have the freedom to do so? Will I get some education and pursue a new career field? Who knows. Writing this thing as I go. What I do know is I am done chasing a dream that will never happen. Time to write a new endgame for my life. May it be grand and filled with happiness and joy. And free of the unfair rejection of women who think I'm worthless.

Thanks for reading.