I decided that I'm going to delete my dating apps and stop searching and looking for love. I always tried to keep up with my ex with dating to keep the sticks even but I can't do this anymore. Dating is miserable if your not basic and like everyone else. I'm a goth metal chick and I can't even find someone whose willing to date me and get to know me. I'm feeling used with hook ups - I just want to be left alone now. But at the same time I'm hesitant. I don't know how boring my life would be if I stopped dating and having guys over. I live alone all by myself and I don't have any friends or family that I can talk to. And I'm to broke to even do more things young adults do my age. So I just sit at home for HOURS on end.