I've been trying very hard to read 40k in an anti-authoritarian way that makes it clear the Emperor was wrong and that authoritarian measures were not neccessary to the survival of humanity.

The issue to me is that even if it's the case that the Emperor was just right, the lore basically makes it so that any reading that doesn't involve some form of authoritarian rule safeguarding humanity into a new psychic age is impossible. It makes me feel hollow. Even more than that it makes me feel activley hateful and wondering why i'm even bothering with it in the first place. Like since that' the case literally nothing else is left to me other than stanning Chaos. I just don't know what to do with the setting anymore if there is literally no wiggle room for people of my perspective within it.

I could easily just say that struggling in defiance of a cruel system that exists as an immoral neccessity fits in well with the universe, and it does, but that means very little when the price for defying it is 'you will literally be consumed and tortured for an eternity by malevolent cosmic entities'. It creates a semiotically cursed burial ground where no other ideas can grow or breathe because they aren't meant or allowed to. The Emperor was right, even if hs execution was flawed and anti-authoritarian, anti-state, anarchist solutions would not save humanity.

There is no wiggle room outside of this, you either accept that your life is to be subsumed into a system designed to simply 'evolve' some future humanity into being beyond the physical, but you will likely feel none of those benefits because you are too dead, broken by a lifetime of wage slavery.

I can easily simply fall back onto the 'rage against the dying of the light' ideal of struggling even if you know you're doomed because it's the right thing to do, and i would be right to do so. But everything about that now feels hollow and false to me.

It feels like there is nothing in this setting that can be read in an anarchist sense. The cards are entirely stacked in favor of ONE faction and you're just meant to accept that.

This fucking sucks. I want to get into AoS more but i'm afraid of running into the same wall again.