During my life as a boy and probably since I was a newborn I was had a dream about this world I can probably tell you why I may sound like a lunatic and maybe unstable moron but mostly why I suffered in this world during my life I grew up in a pretty complicated situation and the other half mentality during my younger years I was a complete trouble maker and probably the youngest horny mtf ever plus I was completely unaware of life I didn't even know what a women was or girl was or Men or guys all I knew was that I was a guy and that their was girls now most guys be like eww girls and so on or most guys would just act like a complete idiot but me I was completely normal towards them one day during my younger life I met a girl named Sabrina never really understood her and mostly never knew her interested in me half my life she and I dated during our school years then one day we got separated and I guess that's what started my mental problems I guess my body was feeling strange and then I started feeling theses ugres and then theses emotions and then I guess y'all can guess what happened then anyways what mainly happened was I start feeling distant with people and my friends and mostly feeling unhappy with myself I started feeling sad and angry and feeling something else like I really never liked this world and I guess after my highschool years is when things got unstable I eventually got my own place and then my own money and then eventually got depressed a lot but It really made me mad most of the time because like always I'm not good with feelings or emotions so after 2 years I met this girl who soon to be my wife and ex wife till this year her name was Savannah and there was a lot of reasons why people say to me then why did you dated her in the first place well to be honest really I don't know how one day I guess we met and started talking not like normal people conversation would be like I said it was mainly a mentally relationship so I figured it was alright till I realized too late she had more problems than I expected so after that I guess I never been the same person since it was like I lost interest in the world relationship happiness and peace so ever since I felt like a sigma male ever since.

What do y'all think?