Hey guys,

You ll see, i am a little wrong here and i am not seeking for help right now. This will be more of a `i am just gonna let my anger/fear/disappointment out where people with similar mindsets can read it´ post.

And maybe we can find some similarities in what we believe.

I am moslem. In this paragraph i am gonna tell you what moslems believe the spritual world is, so just skip it if not interessted. I found this out in my own research bc people dont like to talk about it. They are to afraid or what i experienced a lot they get `paralyzed´ somehow and cant even talk about it.

We believe god created human but before he created fire. With this fire god created lives, the Djins. They are energy and dont manifest in a `body´. They can live up to thousands of years; they also live in communities similar to ours with rules and rulers; they are intelligent and with their extended life span experience wise superior to us; bc they also were given a free will they consist of different religions similar to us humans; they are active in the night and appear to human while in a state between awake and sleep. Sometimes this happens while you sleep or you can reach it through meditation; they wont show you their true selfs or tell you their true names. They change their appearance to animal forms snakes, boars, etc; distance meens nothing to them they travle as fast as light; they are obsessed with blood and excrements, they like the smell.(maybe bc they cant produce similar things, idk); with great effort over years humans are also able to `enter´ their world. (like living vegan to neutralize your energy, opening your Third eye and lifting the curtain over your eyes). But it is also said that you loose your right of absolution when you lift your curtain bc you get to see godly power you are not supposed to.

God dooms those who use magic though there is the possebility to use certain paragraphs given to humans by holy books to protect yourself. These paragraphs produce energy themselfs and with a higher energy you can `wipe out´ lower energy. The amount of energy you can produce depend on the star you were born under. That meens some human are able to produce even greater energy then some Djins exist of. These humans call Djins they are `working´ with often Granddad or Grandma.

Now it is time to tell you why i am here and writing this post.

It is all livings with a free will right to do either good or bad stuff. There are witcher and witches who are in contact with Djins and negotiate with them to do some things for them. Like curses, getting certain objects, etc. idk what they are capable of doing in total. Some of these F@ckers will do a curse for you for a few hundred bucks.

My family and I have been cursed by a few people many times over the years. I realized this about 4 to 5 years back. But wtf are you going to do about it :D. Like hell you realize there is something wrong and you cant do shit about it. Still it is over the top for me. Let me tell you about some simptoms i realized my close family members and i had.

- There is no life that growth besides you.(flowers, animals, children) they simply die in the evolving state even though you do everything right.

- my logical thinking wasnt working anymore. i wasnt capable to do the simplest things. you could have asked me to do the dishes but i couldnt do it. i simply didnt know where to start. you needed to tell me take the dishes, go to the kitchen with them, place them there, take the sponge with dish soap and clean them.

- I had heavy and unnaturally dark eye bags. Even when i slept enough and good and lived healthy.

- I had pale skin

- I had migraine twice or three times a week in its peak

- I was depressed and heavy suicidal without a reason ( my whole family was)

- My face was swollen all the time

- I was very hot tempered and got angry without reason.

- I got Paranoid

-I isolated myself

- The final stage in my cursed journey was my shizophrenical phase of 6 weeks (i had no visions but heared voices)

Finally we found a person who knows how to handle situations like that and showed compassion. This person `healed´ us and still `heals´ us in periods bc the ones cursing us just wont give up or in. They are obsessed with my family and want to see us in misery. Even though they know for a while now that their ambitions are in vain. I think they will continue doing it until they are poor and cant pay for it anymore or the person helping us just gets sick of it and stops.

I dont want revenge, I dont hate these people, I dont want any misery for anyone. I just want this to stop. I want to continue my life to the fullest and how I am suppost to. My head is f@cked up bc for a few days I am myself again or start turning to myself again and i get cursed again and the simptoms start again. ( I think they need some time to put everything in place but the curse is canceled fast enough, so it doesnt get as bad as it was)

I swear to you guys i can see my face changing in the matter of 2 to 3 hours from swollen to normal when a curse is canceled. I get flatulence over days. I start to sweat heavily and start losing weight.

This back and forth lasts for almost a year now. It is leaching and i just have enough of it. Since two weeks I think I am good now. Thats also a reason why i could do some research for myself and i am able to post this.

The constant alert of getting `attacked´ again. The fear of not heaving enough time to settle my life. The disappointment in humanity. And the anger i sometimes feel when people dont belive in the spiritual world or simply cant understand what i am talking about bc this is so over the top for most is eating me from inside.

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Writing this and to post it helped me psychologicaly to deal with it a little. I hope this little excusion into the spiritual world as i know it aroused some interest and you somehow even enjoyed getting to know a little how other cultures view paranormal activities. And maybe you have a little feeling now how someone feels who is heavily cursed.

If you have any questions or just want to comment feel free to do so.