I have been dancing since I was 18 I’m 22 and the club introduced me to SW never knew it was a actual thing lol now here i am probably made a million damn near and regretting every decision I have ever made…as in not finishing school or listening to anyone my whole life . Anyhow the club is closed so now I have went FULLTIME SW … this SHIT is taking a toll on me…. I feel nasty although I shower with many soaps and shampoos regularly even more than once a day sometimes… I still feel FCKINg gross … but im starting to be depressed I smoke a lot of weed and hit “plays” as I call them all day I don’t do any drugs so I can’t numb my feelings…anyhow when I feel like this I’ll just go get my lips done or a new tattoo or purse but that only makes me feel better for a couple weeks also I have a “real” job as well 9/5 on top of children and my sister who I am responsible for … I feel so so so alone in this world I don’t have any friends some days I’ll leave home and not go back for days and I won’t have any human contact unless it’s a “play” I really have no one not a single friend life is so rough … I had a boyfriend of 4 years but we split not too long ago and ever since then I haven’t really figured Out my purpose or my reason 😞 I don’t know what I’m doing … money and material is no issue I have cars and houses and I’m super spoiled by my SD but again it’s not anything I’m lacking other than companionship or friends. Or just anyone … I don’t genuinely know what I want out of life and I just want to rest…. IM TIRED -Paige