Tonight, after rescheduling and confirming back and forth for over a month for having a personal evening where I get to "enjoy" myself the way I would like ends up in me at Dennys unsure if either of the two men are coming tonight.

I specifically sought out men for a mmf threesome for many reasons including getting back into fssw and after not being with men (for many reasons including trauma) for over 4 years I decided to jump in the deep end with some thing I haven't done in a while and actually enjoy. I have been fantazing about this frequently leading up to everything, they even were watching my post on Fetlife where we connected and enjoyed what I posted. I got told by the one who hasn't answered me at all since yesterday when I started to message to get this guy excited to see me and even sent a fun photo to both. One guy went crazy for it and fucking 🦗🦗🦗 from the other guy who was seriously trying to get me to come hookup with him on vday in a ice shack where he and his buddies were ice fishing. We didn't do vday because this mfer wanted to ice fish, I couldn't do the following day because of having my Sapphic event.

I literally drove to them I went and traveled to Milwaukee because they both live here. I covered the room costs since I booked it and I wanted to make this happen, I wanted to make it happen with these two, and I had to get coffee and food for the road and tonight as well. So now I'm at Danny's torn between just anger and disappointment.

This is yet another reason why I don't fuck with men. Why I'm glad I'm pansexual and can be selective about my partners. This is yet another reason I cannot justify sleeping with a man or being out on a social date with one unless I'm being paid. Like I am so fucking over it.

I'm also so over these bum ass dudes trying to pretend that they didn't just try coercing me two days in a row to being a "sugar baby" and being told FUCK NO each time.

I get fucking flamed constantly by men and I just can't stand this behavior at all anymore. I really will not tolerate it for free, nor the oh so tantitlizing parking lot at near midnight offer to pay for my Dennys I'm getting instead of dick that I went out of my fucking way for.

For fucks sake. The damn hollering at me at my fucking car in the damn parking lot really fucking sent me over the damn edge I swear.