I can feel myself finally breaking & I don't know what to do because I'm in a position where I still have to do sw for about another 12-18 months. I cannot waittttt to get out of this industry, it is KILLING me. For context, I'm based in a relatively wealthy city & am at $1,200 ph. But no amount of 5 star hotels or Michelin restaurants is making it easier.

I DETEST all my clients with every fiber of my being. I cannot stand listening to their PATHETIC sob stories about how their wives "lost interest in sex" yeah I wonder why!! You're all insufferable & revolting!

Every time a client touches me I feel nothing but disgust & anger. I wish I was born into a better family that supported me & put me through college. I wish I had decent well-educated wealthy parents that guided me into a better lifestyle. I wish I had a normal job that didn't make me feel so utterly disgusting. Every time I watch some pathetic out of shape man squint his eyes & go red in the face whilst cumming, I feel such an intense disgust & hatred that I visibly grimace (lucky they're too wrapped up in their pathetic micro dick orgasm to notice).

I don't care how many gifts I receive, hell I wouldn't even care if one of them gave me a million dollars, I hate this job & can't WAIT to be free of it. I see so many sw's on X talking about how they love this job & like their clients etc, like are we fr??? How could we possibly enjoy having countless men touch us & put their dicks in our mouths??? Just how?? SW is HELL & I wish there was a way I could get out & never have another man touch me. I went on a 4 month hiatus but I feel no better.