I've been on tour for the last month and I was only planning on a week and a half. I've had to fix some things on my car, spark plugs, some coils and other stuff. Yesterday when I went to go home My car wasn't Accelerating correctly as I got on the freeway, ended up spending the night in my car. Now I'm a motel 6 -.- got my period, irritated AF, can just pay my rent for December for my apt, and I need to get some parts that Google is telling me is between 350-500$. Not a lot, but I AM FUCKING TIRED, I'm tired next week already. I mainly left on tour to distract myself about being alone for the holidays and not having my babies. I ODed back on September 7th, the day my grandma died and it scared tf out of me. This OD was different, and I quit cold turkey and detoxed at home. Well since being on tour, I've been even more lonely, alone in my hotel getting high again. The other day I FELT SO fing sick, nauseous, dry heaving, sweaty but cold. I've never been sick before, that pushed me to deciding to go to the new detox that just opened up when I get back home. It's 5-10 days, (however long it is until you are medically stable.) The best part is they put you on something that helps so you don't have cravings, and it's not methadone or subs,starts with a B I believe. Yesterday I was so overwhelmed that I cried most the day. It's like I can't catch a break. I posted some new ads and have had ABSOLUTELY NO Interest. FML. Sorry about the long post lovelies, i just needed to vent or something, and seeing if yall have some freestyle ideas or something. Thank yall😘