I work in the spa industry as a bodyworker, and I'm fully licensed and everything and been in the field for 10 years. However during the time I've been solicited in multiple occasions for "more" and when they do it's such a rush and it turns me on. Plus I get a nice big extra tip when it's at my regular job, some of those clients have booked me for further private sessions where I give them the same treatment and get paid. It only happens about 1% of all my sessions and I feel like I'm living a double life. I feel like it could get in the way of me finding a meaningful relationship in the long term and even feel like I'm too damaged or dirty. But the rush of the spontaneous pleasure and money is also powerful and it happens unexpectedly. Any thoughts? Has anting felt like this?