It’s been so slow that I broke down and did a BBJ so that I can stay in my hotel where I currently live. And tbh, I feel absolutely disgusting. SW initially gave me freedom. I felt more in control of my time and body. But that was when my life was together. Now, I’m in survival mode. I can’t continue like this.

To anyone considering, never fold on your own standards or boundaries or you will have the worst feeling of regret. I’ve decided to just go to a shelter or maybe rent an office space bc it’s so cheap and I’ll just stay there until I get hired somewhere. I just hope they don’t run my credit to lease a damn office space. Will update.

But this? Nope. Not doing it. If credit wasn’t the issue, I wouldn’t even be in this situation. I pay $2500 monthly for a shitty room when I could have a luxury 2 bedroom apartment downtown with a balcony. Even with it being super slow rn, I’d feel wayyyy better in a luxury apartment than I do now. 😒 Okay not I’m ranting. Bye!