Hi guys, I've been in the business since 2017 after I lost my cocktailing gig, then went right into dancing and almost immediately into escorting. I won't lie those first few years were like a fever dream, blowing money fast, it was literally sooooo easy. Now nearly 7 years later, I'm heavily addicted to gambling and alcohol, especially now after losing my mom and grandma (3) weeks apart from eachother. It's like I feel like I haven't caught a break in idk how long nor have I had a moment to take a sigh of relief. I am in total survival mode! Anywho the gambling and drinking is how I'm coping with the extreme loss. But I'm tired of not having sht to show for selling my arse! All because of the stupid fckn casino. And this month especially has been very trying, I'm nearly 8k down smh. It's been incredibly slow. You'd think here in Vegas it would be easy but boy is that wrong! Hell you got potential clients offering $100 in 5 star upscale locations it's frustrating I'm definitely not a bad looking gal. I have natural 42 ggg breasts, a beautiful smile so I've been told and a total gift for gab. I'm just miserable inside and idk if that's affecting my clientele. Also I've been applying for vanilla jobs just so I can take a break for a while get some therapy under my belt and really tackle my gambling plus alcohol addiction. I'm 28 going on 29 and for the past 7 years all I've done is gamble. I'm also a mother and feel like a scumbag everyday. The pressures are rising. I'm severely in debt. I've taken on a lot since losing my mom. Took on my siblings who we all live together now, but it's just different I'm used to being and having my own. Idk what to do. Any kind uplifting words will help. Currently waiting on the bus praying that I can flip the last $20 I have into $2000 tonight by Gods grace cuz I surely need it tired of trying to chase wins and inevitably lose it all! May god be with all us girls out here struggling and trying to survive