so I promised myself I would never ever get in a relationship while doing this type of work whether it was stripping or SW. mainly because nobody and I mean, nobody would have no type of respect for me (NOT SAYING THERE WONT BE) I tried in the past and it didn’t work out at all. It’s almost like when men get a hold of me they want to possess me && kidnap me I can’t leave or talk to people. It gets toxic. My last relationship sent me to therapy lmao

One time I went to Florida to go to dance & the club was so fucking dead. I literally did four songs on stage cuz other girls would not get on the stage. I made zero dollars after four songs. I saw this fine ass dude. I had been eyeing him, but he was talking to another dancer so after I finished my set. She left him & I found my opportunity to go talk to him.

as dumb as it sounds, uk when you meet someone and you automatically have like a weird, strong connection, why did I end up talking to this man for the rest of the night 😭 &&& here’s another thing I don’t do, I don’t invite people to see me after the club cuz 99% I am exhausted & any man contact makes me wanna throw up.

I invited him back to my hotel room, we did not even do nothing. We talked some more and then he fell asleep on me while I was to packing since i had to check out next day…

mind you my hotel room had two queen beds, but i literally got in the bed he was in & yes i was the one making all the moves, I told him to scoot so we can cuddle. I slept for 4 hours. I had to check out, but it was the best 4 hours of sleep I had ever gotten in such a long time. It was like a spiritual sleep lmao

Here’s the dilemma he does not live in the same town as I do, but he lives in the same state as I do. He has a career he’s doing good for himself…. I want to date him but today I was having a conversation with him because I model and then he said something about a casting couch… I said well I will never fuck for opportunities but I will fuck for some money tho! Tell me why this man said oh why you never told me the ticket. I damn near fainted tf out. Lord I actually thought it would be great smh now i’m gonna hit him with a very ridiculous amount & let’s see how that sinks in.

has anybody been through this before?