I’m so shaken up about that guy that I think was a cop. (Had a gun hidden on him, had on “cop shoes”, and the recent stings in Mass.)

Now that I calmed down, and processed everything, I think I came to a conclusion.

This isn’t worth my future.

I’ve been so focused on college and wanting to get into tech and with the background requirements being as strict. Being arrested for prostitution will immediately make me un-hireable to any organization.

I’m so paranoid. I don’t know what to do. I need this money so bad right now, but I’m so frozen with fear that I don’t know how to continue in a way that’s safe for me to do so…

My screening has been non existent for the last few years because I just tried to go off of instinct and the cardinal rule. “Don’t talk about sex” but clearly that wasn’t enough. Clearly cops are finding ways around that.

Can someone please talk to me? 😩