i’ve been doing live camming and custom content for a few years on and off. i’ve been with my current partner (male, we’ll use the name Jake) for about three years other than a couple breakups before we got our shit together in individual therapy.

Jake is an alcoholic, but he quit consuming alcohol a couple months ago and replaced it with kratom drinks. his sex drive is usually… low. even lower now. idk if kratom does that? he’s also pretty vanilla, but i can live with that part. we have only had sex 3 times this year. online, i obviously encounter men with high sex drives pretty frequently and make kinky content for them. sometimes it makes me sad that all of these men online are crazy about me, but my partner barely wants to have sex with me. i have been craving sex. especially passionate sex and kissing, which we haven’t done for about 8-ish month.

he has said we can have sex more frequently, but he genuinely just doesn’t think about it, and i’m too afraid to initiate because he’s rejected me multiple times in the past. he does have adhd so that could play a part. he has made an effort with intimacy in other ways: holding my hand more often, etc. and that does make me feel better! he’s not a touchy person. we’re in an open relationship and i’m free to sleep with women pretty much whenever i want, but i want penis lmao. specifically his because it’s great and i miss it! plus i don’t trust other men enough to be that intimate with them, so that’s out of the question. i would love any advice. things i could do to cope or get him more interested, things he can do to increase his sex drive, any advice is appreciated!