Maybe b/c I'm a bit drunk and high, idk. The last few days have been a mix of highs and lows, good and bad. I changed my rates from sex / head since I was tired of having a sore jaw and lips. At the end of the night, my lips are still puffy and jaw is sore. Guys say better to have a nasty slut suck me off than have to look at you. Those cheap guys wanting sex want doggy so they don't need to look at me...and are quick to tell me that. Then the nice guys, the ones that want repeat visits say you seem like such a nice girl, why you doing this. How about if I give you 200 a week to let me be exclusive. I'm like, fuck, who can afford rent and food on that? fml...time for another drink. I'm learning to like rum...just takes the edge off the shit. Sad b/c I've not talked about the good, idk, b/c the bad just stings.