I'm looking to get a knotted dildo, but am having trouble finding something in the sizing I think would be best for me.

I currently have a horse dildo that is 12" long and has an 8" circumference (3" width) at its thickest part (the flared head). I can only fit up to maybe 8" of the length though, so the extra length makes it harder to hold and control.

I'm looking for a toy that is at least 9" long insertable (I want a little extra room even if I can't fit it all). I don't have a huge preference on it's general width, but I want the knot to be about as big around as the flared head of my current toy. it can be slightly smaller or bigger, but I would prefer that size or bigger if anything.

I don't care much if it has a suction base; honestly if anything I'd prefer some kind of handle/holding piece at the end if such a thing exists lol (I have chronic joint pain and instability, so it's very important regardless of anything else that I am able to comfortably use the toy)

thanks!