I'm a pretty normal Chinese-Malaysian girl. I went to a good school and worked hard to get straight As. I've always done as my parents have told me and tried my best to live up to their expectations. But I've never had much luck finding a nice Chinese boy to date.

I've tried dating a couple of guys but they just don't do it for me. For a long time I thought maybe I just wasn't very romantic or interested in sex. But after I discovered Reddit I started touching myself and I realised that there are some things that drive me wild.

I'm not sure why but I've always found white men more attractive. Especially if they're older. I'm starting to realise it's because I want to feel submissive in a relationship. I want to be with a man who is genuinely superior to me in some way. Treats me like I'm just a toy for him to use. I've never been a feminist and I'm starting to realise I actually find it quite sexy when men are kind of misogynistic.

My fantasy is for a rich, older white man to sweep me off my feet. To make me feel foolish for ever trying to work hard at school. To show me that my place is on my knees at his feet. I want to be trained to serve him as his maid, as his secretary and as his fucktoy. I want to be owned with no chance of escape. Maybe gaslighted or brainwashed into believing it's all for my benefit. Although I don't think it would take much work to convince me.

I am deeply submissive and just crave the attention of an older man. If one day I find the man who can tame me, I will become whatever he wants. Let him parade me around as his trophy. His sexy, subservient Chinese trophy slut.