Hey guys imma be honest I’m a sex addict and I have a girlfriend I work so hard for me and her I have my own business so I want to build it up to give her a great life we both come from struggle. I deal with alot because I’m taking care of her full time and she’s the greatest thing but I have been caught talking to other women I never physically cheated but I guess I’ve always yearned for women approval because when I was younger I didn’t get it as I grew up fucking women was my objective cause every time I got in a relationship I’d they would cheat when I didn’t I’ve almost committed suicide in the last month I have friends but they have happy lives so I don’t want to bother them I also fell like I’m the son my mother never wanted.(she didn’t say this) so I’ve just always looked at sex as the only value I can bring to women I’ve always been compared to my father who left my life when I was young.. and honestly the only thing I want to do is move to another country just so I can isolate and never hurt anyone (no I have never done anything that would break the law) I just feel worthless and sex for me is like crack to a crack head. … I know a lot of yall are going to judge me and it’s fine I know I’m a piece of shit but i sincerely want to change my ways I don’t feel valued unless someone wants sex with me so in the past I’ve always just wanted to fuck so many women because I believed that’s all I could give them I believed that that’s all I was good for … sometimes I just stay up for days in a row working because I’m just so tired of being me .. I hate who I am and I hate myself I hate that I’m a sex addict I hate that I’m so good at art and music but I’m too stupid how to make it make me money I feel bad for my girlfriend because I’m just worthless sometimes I don’t want to have sex with her because I just believe she deserves better and when I say that to her she just uplifts me I love the way she smiles laughs and the way she’s always so happy I’m almost jealous because I wish I could be that happy.. if you made it this far I’m sorry I took so long.