Self diagnosed, hyper sexual… have attended SAA, as well as NAA for weed of all things, I have more of a sexual addiction than I do with anything else, might be a little OCD, ADHD as well, so Neuro divergence is there…

Thank you for reading l, I don’t really like the word sex addict and as I haven’t been to a doctor, I don’t subscribe to it but I’ve sparingly use the word with family and friends when explaining my thoughts…

Currently in a relationship, it’s then roughly 6 months, jumped in a little quicker than I should have, this is my 3rd relationship I’m my 28 years and I’m starting to get the urges, where I’m afraid I will cheat… I’ve always pride in myself, and not being a cheater, I can be flirtatious and promiscuous, but I will usually break up with the person or remains single before I cheat…. I am conflicted.

I’ve met woman who isn’t my ideal, attraction partner, obviously enough to keep me interested, but it’s really her personality and her way with me that really caught me… I’m a relatively fit guy, I go to the gym, I play sports and I even work in an environment where there are a large amount of women so my eyes are always wandering and it’s very easy to find somebody that’s more attractive than the woman I’m with now, and that is discomforting as much as it is stressful.

I know I can be shallow, and I enjoy aesthetics, I am not in the market to look for a woman that looks better than her, but acts like her, I just sometimes feel like i might be polyamorous, or just not meant to be in a relationship where I’m not head over heels for my partner…

I’m just venting, a bit conflicted, I don’t know whether this is going to end up in me, breaking her trust, breaking her heart or breaking myself, because I keep coming back to the thought that I don’t want to hurt her, but I don’t think I want to be with her, and I don’t know what’s worse Hurting myself or hurting her, in the event that I do cheat it probably wouldn’t come out, but I really don’t want to. I would rather just break up with her but at the same time I don’t want to hurt anybody, I have had a problem with codependency in the past, might have some sexual trauma as well, but again, I’ve never been to a doctor for any of these things just counseling or peer talks.

I know myself and my lifestyle up till now, and it has been more taboo than it has been normal, and sex addiction is sometimes downplayed so here I am… among like minds

Open to any feedback, advice as well, please state, whether you’re male or female, if giving advice just so I can see how your mind processes the situation.

Thank you for reading