earlier this week I'm not sure what happened, it literally felt like something just woke up in me and I had an uncontrollable urge to give oral to a guy. I'm not sure why and it's beginning to be hard to control and I've even posted around looking and have been close to meeting up with people but I have to hold myself back which is becoming extremely difficult to do. I was in a rehab for a bit to control these urges because it was getting bad and out of control. Luckily Im ok and healthy. But I am scared that I'm not going to be able to hold this urge back and do something I regret. I don't know how to control this urge and I am getting worried. I am just scared that if someone messages me back at the wrong time, I will give in and meet them and not know how far I'll let them go with me. I do not want to feel this way and haven't relapsed and had a healthy amount of relations and everything but this feeling literally makes me shiver and I'm scared, I feel like I'm a drug addict having withdrawals.