I'm sorry if I share too much in this. I have never done anything like this before so bare with me. If you need the need to remove me I'll understand.

I'm a coping dope, and I am a sex addict. 

My mind has been hypersexualizing everything since I was about 9. I haven't worn shorts in public even to this day because I worry that my thoughts will give me a visible erection. I took to using stuffed animals I had around to satisfy urges, which lead to a small interest in the furry community.

I am stuck at a point to where I avoid relationships and intimacy because I feel I am an animal. I'm not under control enough to be with someone. Every relationship I've ever been in I've ruined with my libido. To the point that I don't date anymore. Now I only receive physical contact when I visit glory holes, adult theaters, and other risky meetups. I'm not gay. I wouldn't consider myself to be bisexual, even. But if I need a release that masturbating 4 times a day won't handle, I know the only one who will understand is another equally uncontrolled man. I've done things that made me vomit after....

when I talk myself out of these actions, I end up using 4 hours of my day watching porn, using AI sex bots, and sexual hypnosis. I don't want to be like this. Iwant to fall in love. I don't want to consider hurting myself. I want to change.

I'm sorry I ended up cutting a majority of the details out of this, so it seems all over the place.

This is my first time saying this to anybody. Any advice would help. I'm sorry