I used to think of it as my dragon. When it was sleeping all was well with my life albeit a bit boring. But when the dragon woke up all hell broke loose. I’d neglect my basic needs and seek all sorts of kinky pleasures to the point of self destruction followed by shame and guilt. I’ve noticed every cycle where the dragon wakes, my behaviour becomes more and more depraved, so is my shame. I’ve spoken to a therapist but only now did I realize this is sex addiction. I don’t like it when my dragon is awake as it’s destructive, even if it’s intoxicating But when it sleeps life is a bit boring and dull. I wish there was a healthy middle ground. I just wanted to share this and welcome any comments or suggestions.