About a month ago my gf of a year broke up with me. Ever since I’ve experienced extreme guilt and deep sadness after sex or masturbation. These feelings made me realize how often I am viewing pornography, how young I was when it was first introduced to me, and how it’s completely warped the way I view women. Ever since I have been trying to reconcile with this compulsion I have to masturbate (to weird kinks that I have no interest in in real life, to tinder profiles, weird things) or have sex with women I’m not interested in emotionally. I know masturbation is natural and I know casual sex is natural, but they both leave me feeling completely empty and depressed and filled with self loathing. This post is somewhat to vent but also to see if anyone else experiences this? How do you cope or overcome it?