It actually kind of pains me to even write this. I had videos and pics of me and my last girlfriend being intimate. Pictures of her. Pictures of us on our dates. We were long distance and I cherished stuff like that.

I know she was lying and just using me. It didn’t stop the feelings from coming back. I guess this is normal. This is what loss feels like. I still have to delete the pic of us in DR the night I took her out. It’s hard to do, but once this is posted, it’s gone.

I remember talking to my therapist about this girl months ago and I was expressing how much I hated the long-distance aspect of our relationship. She asked me what I wanted to do if I didn’t like it and I said that I wanted her here.

She was never coming. No matter what I did or said. It wasn’t up to me.

I’m never going to put myself in such a position again. I deserve more out of my relationships with people. Hanging on to her just holds me back.

Thank you 🙏🏾