I haven’t just been thinking about sex this whole time, I just had one rough night over the weekend.

I’ve actually been working on making nonsexual connections in my life and being more comfortable with new things. I have friends that I can just sit and get tea or a coffee with. It’s not everyone who will just do that, so I’m grateful.

I also made a new friend from driving Lyft. She’s gorgeous, but what really drew me to her was how easy it was to talk to her, over time, we’ve just been texting, phone calls, and I visit her sometimes.

Focusing on myself and my priorities have also been imperative, making sure I got groceries in my fridge is an every week occurrence, as opposed to what I was doing before. I eat pushups first in the morning now as well.

It hasn’t been all bad, but I can’t just ignore my sexual desires. I’m taking my time with my romantic life, trying to at least find someone I can vibe with without any transactional stuff. I set an alarm on my phone for pornography use. Once a week. If I can do it less, I will, but for now, once a week. The goal right now is to remove the compulsiveness from my urges.

Feedback is welcomed 🙏🏾