So I know I'm a sex addict. I have been one now going on 10 years. I used to use porn mostly, however not that frequent. The last several years, I got a taste for sex with strangers. Mainly using prostitutes. Can't tell you how many $1,000's of dollars I've wasted over the years for that sexual fix.

Recently, I've become more aware of this addiction and trying to recover from it. I now mainly masturbate and/or edge on a daily basis to porn. I know I need to quit that as well, however I'm justifying it by thinking it's better than renting a hooker.

I enjoy the feeling from edging and masturbating so it's hard for me to quit. I've tried many times over the past few months only to relapse hard and even visit a cheap hooker for my quick fix.

I've asked before and others have told me of meetings online as I don't think there are any in my town. However, most of the meetings online are either when I'm at work or when someone is home that I can't talk freely.

I am keeping busy as much as possible, and I've gone back to college to finish my degree. Even then, when I know I need to focus on my studies, my thoughts are on when I'm going to jack off or get my release next.

I would be ok with just using porn to masturbate, however it's getting to the point where all I can think about is when next to do it.

Am I just going to be hopeless now? No relief in sight for me??