My gf (ex? not sure at this point) is going through a lot of stress and issues in her personal life. We are slightly long distance and she was going to move up here but those plans kinda got ripped out from under us. That stress along with a few other big things caused a bit of a divide for us. We argued and she ended up breaking it off because it has become messy.

Well I was hurt and devastated. She was and still is the love of my life and will always have a piece of me nobody else will get. I clarified that we weren’t together and she said no we are not and “Youre free to do whatever you want”. So I hopped on dating apps and almost immediately had convos and matches with 10 new girls I have 3 dates set up for this weekend and one for Wednesday night.

She calls me this morning crying, we both start crying and decide to work on things. So now I feel like a complete shithead for immediately turning to other women. Why am I like this and how can I stop?