I am really really scared today. Due to my acting out behaviors before I realized my addiction, I was arrested. I won't go into details, but I had a meeting face to face with a lawyer today. It'll be at least $10,000, I pulled everything out of my savings and got about half way. I'll have to make payments plans for the rest. I kept 2k to use to keep my house for at least two months.

I lost my job when they found out I was arrested. I filed for unemployment and they denied it. I've been scrambling for a job since I lost my last one and had some interviews. I am hesitant to go back to serving because I wasn't ever really great. But I have an interview Friday.

Even with everything I'm probably going to jail. I just hope I can keep my house.

And on top of that, I'll need to talk to my parents and friends about this. One of them loves with me and I'm worried what will happen when I tell him. But he needs to know so that if he wants to leave he can have time.

I just can't believe I've done this to myself. I've got an SAA meeting at three.